Abbe’s Ruminations February 2026
A shift in awareness
Perhaps that is why I’m struggling with a story inside me that refuses to come out.
Instead of writing from a full point of view, I only have the remnants of feelings.
I no longer have the smells, the rhythms, or the beauty of dullness. I feel it but the sensation comes from too many sources, not specific.
Once I sat in a tree and looked out, and my poetry began. Palm trees all around. Warmth, sun, and the buzz of words in rapid cadence, foreign to my ears. I felt the world shift, and I became a flightless bird. Held captive by the vastness of what I didn’t know.
Now, I hear and see with years of travel, and the places merge. The dirt roads of Sri Langa, the hills of Nepal, the slow steady pace of the hills where coffee grows, or the beating of drums within the huts of the Masi Mari.
These visions merge in my brain, and I know I’ve lost the ability to settle in a tree. The bird with wings, moves too quickly, and I must reabsorb… Words fill pages but you, my reader, only see what I place before you. I’m remiss.
Immersed in languages, I tease out another culture. I review my photos, go to YouTube to view another version of scenes. I owe it myself and to you, to dive deeper.
I’m every character in the stories I tell. I’ve questioned Carl’s view, he acts my will, but he isn’t me and I lay down my voice and listen.
I no longer mount trees to see the world. I walk the streets. I swim with thoughts. I read, misinterpret and apologize for my ignorance. I study the politics that begin in my country, only to find history is wider and repetitive. My world view is skewed even if it is wider than most.
Trust is murky, as we advance in a digital world where artificial intelligence plays with our visions.
I’ll rewrite Carl’s next scene, from the ground up. Hear his voice, let him speak and place doubt as well as hope. I must remember that conflicting views make the world whole.
Let me know your thoughts on new awarenesses or anything that occurs to you. I’m at http://www.abberolnick.com
